Was thinking about a few things just now but kinda forgotten clean about it once I settled down for my scrap book.

For those who dunno what's my scrap book for,it's for(not for doodle.I am shame to have no art genes in my deoxyribonucleic acid.Yea,I decided to find up what does DNA stands for.Bet you dunno too) you know...my memories.

As I grew up,I find it is very difficult to retain memories.

You can perhaps recalled bits and pieces of your past but can hardly clasp them down.

You know that every tomorrow will become your today(and that's why you should be thankful you still have a chance to savour ur today each time you wake up.) and of coz every today will become your yesterday.

So I begin the habit (lately) to collect down maybe..reciepts or whatever that I think is worth keeping.Paste them in a scrap book and pen down lil words.

I will just look thru them every day and be happy.
It's almost like writing your dairy or now blogging down.
Retaining a piece of every today so that you can keep your yesterday with you.

Sometimes it may be a bad memory or soon to be an aching memory.
But I didnt wanna throw them away.
If it still hurts...Maybe someday again it wont when I think of it.
But again..even if it still hurts,guess it is not really a bad thing after all.
It means that you have live,you truely live.

(oh what a fit.Vertical Horizon's "Best I Ever Had" is on air now.I love V.H's songs!Where are them??)

"And it's not so bad.You are only the Best I ever had.You dont need me back.Your just the best I ever had."

Actually I shouldnt put that line in,coz it may hurt someone else...who may or may not be reading this.
But again,I dun think anyone else reads my rants.

Sigh.
Past...

Sometimes I wondered why does the past usually hurts?
But which would you rather?
A past that hurts or a future that hurts?
It's like a cycle.You either forward or rewind?

Gee..what am I talking about!
Bollocks it!

Blah blah blah blah!

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I was going to say let's talk about love.

Oh Love...
How can anyone survived without any love in him?
(Not talking about Mr. Lucifer.But even if it's the dark Lucifer,he too loved.If he doesnt loves God,how would his hatred be that great?
Talking about this makes me shudder,dont find me Lucifer.Dont!)

But I thought...the love for another mutual being is a very brittle 'thing' so as to say.

It's not like...loving God or even just your teddy bear.

You know
(I kinda feel so sad and ashamed using the Almighty's name to illustrate.What am I gonna answer to God if he question me one day..

God:"Why are you not devoted to my teachings,my religions,my faith?How can you pray to me and still burns joss sticks?"

Me:"....Becoz my parents are strict Taoism and I dont wanna disobey them?"(in a tiny voice) )

Loving God or say ur teddy bear doesnt hurts you.

But a love for another live will somewhat hurts you.

Even if it doesnt flipped to hate,it will still bring your grief and tears.

No?

Sigh...
See...

You love your parents,but sometimes you dont understand the things they "force" onto you(be it right or wrong) and you get hurt and you may hurt them.

You love your friend,but sometimes tihngs dont turn up right no matter how joined you both are at the hips.And you get angry and is hurt.
I wanna say this to Yng.
I still havent been thinking that it is my fault and I am not contemplating to apologise.
But I still missed you badly.I dunno if you still reads my blog.I am hoping against hope anyway.
I really miss you and I still love you,dear o' sis.

You have a pet and when it passed away or gets sick,you are terribly sad.


You broke up with ur dear bf/gf whom you loved dearly.
Sad.
Needless to rub on.

It is not possible,in my dictionary,to find a love that doesnt hurts.

You will just be thankful not to let the dark and wrong side consume you.(ie,not to turn love to hate.But sometimes...I think it is essential or rather unavoidable.)

I think even Snow White had her fair share of grief one day.Just that the pages arent enough to keep the author from spoiling the children's fantasy.

Sometimes you laugh...you cry...you sulk...you smile...Each raw emotion so rich,so real and perhaps so painful too.

You laugh till ur tummy aches.
You cry till your eyes hurts.
You sulk till others get angry(which is painful too)
You smile till your jaws is stiff.(ouch!)

One life...

It is not very possible to avoid all these.
For those who choose to escape,let the fools learn the hard way.

I still believe....


Rainbows after storm.

So it means..if you are sad by whatever things in life now...I think and hope you will soon smile again.
The bigger the storm,the prettier and longer the rainbow.(so as to say)

My thoery.

I think it is the BEST around!!

Drop your motivational book,seek for Mich!!!

=)